thoughts in my brain

I thought I missed home... but I dont

 I deffinitely miss living in the city of Atlanta, but not within these four walls called home. I guess being away in college has made me see things for the way they are in regards to my relationship with family and it made me realize that we only get along when we’re apart. Living with my mom and dad is like pouring oil and water in the same cup; we can live in the same space (barely) but we’ll never completey mix. Im not saying that I havn’t tried forming a stronger relationship with my parents, but it never goes as planned. So in the end I’ve decided to leave it alone and let it be. I cant build a relationship if I dont have a foundation to build on.

college is a business

I waisted $200 on a single book (that I havnt used at all this semester) only to find out that it’s now worth $1. The sad part is that the school will sell it to whoever needs it next semester for more than half the price I originally paid for it. Im convinced that they care more about your money than your education.

I think I used to be obsessive compulsive

I didnt realize it at the time, but now I’ve come to the conclusion that I definitely had a problem. Here’s a list of my time consuming rituals and habits:

1.) I had an insane obsession with symetry. Everything had to be even, and well balanced.

2.) Everything had to sit side-by-side in an organized fashion (usually descending in size or height). 

3.) From the time I stood up I would start counting every step I made to the time I sat back down again (I usually lost count though).

4.) Whenever I walked on a tile floor, I felt obligated to only walk within the square tiles and not step on the line.

5.) If one of my hands or feet touched something, then the other hand or foot had to touch it too.

The list could go on further, but this is all I can think of at the moment. Dont worry, I eventually grew out of it (kind of).  

arms > legs

what could i do without arms 

lately I've been listening to everything but hip-hop....

In the process I’ve found some new bands and feel the need to share. So for the next couple of days Ill post some links and stuff to the ones I liked the most.

unintentional

Yesterday I talked to my friend for the first time in a while and it reminded me of how much I used to like her (but I’m over that now). Then I started to think of all the girls I’ve ever talked to and how only she and 2 others had the ideal qualities of what I would now pursue in a relationship. Not that I haven’t already tried with them, but the end result was always friendship.I don’t expect them to ever resume any further feelings for me outside of friendship, but their lasting impressions have sprung forth a new habit when it comes to finding girls.

 I realized that I’ve been placing them as ideal examples of exactly what qualities I’d like to pursue and it’s obviously unintentional because I didn’t notice what I’d been doing until yesterday. I wouldn’t go as far as to say that I’ve been holding them as a golden standard, but each one brings forth a list of admirable traits I wouldn’t mind seeing in a significant other.  This definitely filters out the good from the bad, but it also narrows down any other possible selection (at least by 1/2 if not more). People like them aren’t found so easily so I guess there aren’t many who can compare in return. I’m not sure if this is normal, weird, good, or even bad and I don’t have a solution for it.

designated friend

Its kind of like a designated driver minus the driving. This is the person who will keep you from completely embarrassing yourself in public after getting shit-faced because you dont know your limit. Their job as your overseer is to make sure you dont do anything you might regret the next day…. After seeing what happened to this girl last night, I wouldnt recommend drinking without one.

trial and ERROR

It would be nice to have some success every now and then.